Eve 6 : "Inside out"

 I would swallow my pride
I would choke on the rhines
But the lack there of
would leave me empty inside
I would swallow
my doubt turn it inside out
Find nothing but faith in nothing.
Want to put my tender heart
it in a blender.
Watch it spin round
to a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous then
I'm through with you

I burn, burn like a wicker cabinet
Chalk white and oh so frail
I see our time has gotten stale.
The tick tock of the clock is painful.
All sane and logical
I want to tear it off the wall
I hear words and clips and phrases
I think sick like ginger ale.
My stomach turns and I exhale.
So Cal is where my mind states
But it's not my state of mind
I'm not as ugly sad as you.

Or am I origami folded up
and just pretend
Demented as the motives in your head
I alone am the one you don't know
You need me take heed feed your ego.
Make me blind when your eyes close
Sink when you get close
Tie me to the bedpost.